the Desire in you isn’t random

There’s a verse I keep coming back to lately:

“For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases Him” (Philippians 2:13).

That verse has changed the way I see desire. Because if God is the one placing the desire in you to write, to create, to share, then it is not something you need to question or earn. It is something you can trust, even if you do not fully understand it yet, even if you feel unqualified, even if you have been sitting on it for a long time.

I don’t think we realize how often we dismiss the very things God is gently inviting us into. What if that desire you keep brushing off is actually the beginning of obedience? What if one small yes could open something you cannot see yet? Abraham said yes to something that made no sense at all, and it changed everything about his life and legacy. Sometimes I wonder what my own yes is still waiting to unlock.

If I’m honest, I used to make writing way harder than it needed to be. I thought I needed to feel ready first, confident, clear, put together. But that is not how it worked at all. The truth is, the only way to become a writer is to start writing. Not overthinking it. Not waiting until it feels easy. Not trying to figure it all out first. Just beginning. Pressure free. Doing it out of delight, with a smile on my face.

When I finally self published my first poetry book, I remember sitting there thinking, wait, that’s it? I had built it up so much in my mind that I expected some huge, overwhelming process, and instead there was this quiet moment of realization that obedience was actually simpler than fear had made it out to be. And something in me loosened. I did not become more confident before I did it. I became more confident because I did it.

Creativity, I am learning, is not something you force. It is something you receive. It has a source: Jesus. Behind the closed door, in the secret place.

It comes in stillness, in quiet, in those moments where you are not trying so hard to produce something. It flows out of the hand of the creator effortlessly into our minds. It’s those random ideas that will not leave you alone, that sentence you cannot stop thinking about, that pull toward creating something even when you do not know why, I do not think that is random. I think that is Him. And if that is true, then creativity does not have to feel like pressure. It can be easy and enjoyable.

There is a question I used to ask myself all the time, who am I to write anything? What do I have to offer the world when there are millions of others sharing their own thoughts and opinions? I am just one more voice lost in the crowd. And I think a lot of people stay stuck right there. But over time, I have started to see that question differently. My obedience is for His glory and He gets to do anything He wants to with my writings because they are downloaded from Him and is meant to be used to glorify Him in the earth however He sees fit.  He never asked me to be impressive or polished or fully confident in myself. He just asked me to be willing.

 Paul says in 1 Corinthians 2:1, “When I came to you, I did not come with eloquence or human wisdom as I proclaimed to you the testimony about God.”

That is honestly so freeing, because it means your words do not have to sound a certain way to matter. You do not have to be the most articulate person in the room. You do not have to say something no one has ever said before. You don’t have to introduce new earth shaking concepts into the world. Your story does not need to be extraordinary to be used. Sometimes the most ordinary moments with God are exactly what someone else needs to hear to spark a holy fire in them.

Publishing my first book did not make me a bestselling author. Honestly, I do not even know how many people have read it. But it did something deeper in me. It broke something off of me. I have always been naturally quiet and afraid to speak, worried I would sound stupid or be misunderstood. But writing forced me to step out of that. And I am still renewing my mind to the simple fact that my voice matters…because HE gave it to me.

That first book felt like an introduction to a version of me I had not met yet, not a new me, just a more free one. And I think that is what creativity is meant to do. It does not just produce something outside of you, it changes something inside of you.

If you feel that pull to write, to create something, to put words on a page, but you keep stopping yourself, I just want to say this…

You do not need more permission than the desire God already placed in you.

You do not need to become someone else first. You just need to begin. That is why I created this workbook, not to give you a complicated system, but to help you slow down, get honest, and move through the fear that keeps you stuck. To help you reconnect with the voice HE gifted you with and actually start.

You do not have to force creativity. You just have to say yes to it.